Pregnancy #2

I am currently 26 weeks along and this, like every other post, is way over due but I wanted to document some of this for my own memory so sorry if you don't like reading about old news!

Nathan and I had been trying to have a baby for awhile with no luck. We got pregnant so quick with Emerie that I didn't even consider that it wouldn't be like that every time.  We were starting to get discouraged and I really can't express how frustrating and sad it was trying with no success.  I had had a miscarriage earlier in the year and so combined with this I was starting to feel maybe another baby just wasn't going to come. During that time, I really developed so much love and compassion for those that have struggled with infertility for years. We didn't have to wait that long but I feel like I got a small peek into the strength that it must take to keep going month after month and the hope and faith it takes to believe that you will someday have your baby whether conceived by you or adoption or by whatever means it takes.

We weren't really sure what to do and knew it was too early to consider doctors or anything. We even started to consider Nathan going off his MS medication to see if maybe it was his new medication he was taking that was making it harder. We decided that we would try one more month and if it didn't happen then we would stop "trying".  I took a pregnancy test mid-January and it was negative. I cried and was so frustrated because I had really believed it was going to be a positive. I let Nathan know and we decided that we were just going to relax and enjoy our time as a family of 3 and not worry.  I spent then next week and a half just convinced that I was pregnant. I had symptoms like I was so I secretly bought another test and decided to take it without Nathan knowing so if it was another negative there wouldn't be another big let down. So one more when Nathan woke up early and took care of Emerie I ran and took the test. I have never been so nervous but it pretty quickly popped up with a positive. I cried and was excited and immediately decided that it was perfectly set up for me to surprise Nathan since he already thought he knew we weren't pregnant.

So I decided to make our favorite Asian food for dinner and make fortune cookies. The fortune inside would say, "You're going to be a daddy again! Lucky Numbers 9-18-2015 (what I guessed my due date would be)". It was such a fun surprise and I even got it on video. His reaction was just what I hoped it would be and it was so much fun to actually surprise him this time.

(The fortune cookie...it was actually really delicious)

     

Emerie went to the first appointment with us where they were able to do an ultrasound and hear the heartbeat. She continued to pound her heart saying "bum bum". It was pretty cute!

At our gender ultrasound.

And if you haven't heard (which is weird because I posted it like a month ago) we are having a cute little BOY! We are so excited and happy that we are going to have a little boy and sibling for Emerie. We might be crazy for having a baby in September during Nathan's second year which is supposedly the hardest year. Our original plan was for the summer but that wasn't Heavenly Father's plan so I'm hoping it will all work out and I won't lose my mind as Nathan will just not be around as much (and that's being generous) to help like he was with Emerie. But we are so happy and know this baby is coming at this time for a reason!

25 weeks